Chapter 76
It has been yours for so long, that I think that very fact has made it rather less good-for-nothing, and, Wynifred, it has in it the capacity for growth. If you would take it and keep it, there is no telling what you might make of it."
"I do not understand," cried Wynifred.
"You do not understand why your own was not given to you before?" he asked, softly. "That is the shameful part of the story. I kept it back only for mean and contemptible reasons; because I was afraid to give it absolutely into your keeping, not knowing certainly whether you would care to have it. But I have been shown that this was not honest. Whether you will have it or not, my dearest, I must show my heart to you, I must implore you to take it, to forgive its imperfections, to count as its one merit that it is all your own. It is myself, my beloved, who am at your feet. My life, my hopes, my love, are all yours, and have been for so long.... Can you forget that I withheld them when they were not mine to keep? Can you forgive that they are so poor, so imperfect, so unworthy?"
She had given a little cry when first the meaning of his riddle became apparent to her, and, s.n.a.t.c.hing away one hand, had covered her face with it.
All the Irish fervor and poetry of Claud's nature was kindled. He was no backward lover,--the words rushed to his lips, he knew not how.
Determinedly he put his arm round his love as she sat, speaking with his lips close to her ear.
"Wyn," he said, with that sweetness of voice and manner which had first won her heart. "Wyn, I'll give you no option. You are mine; you know it.
I deserve punishment; but don't punish me, dear, for I tell you you can't be happy without me, any more than I without you. Is that presumption? I think not,--I believe it's insight. There are times, you know, when one seems to push away all the manners and customs of the day, and my heart just cries out to yours that we are made for one another. My own, just look at me a minute, and tell me if that isn't so."
Drawing her closer to him, he gently pulled away her hand from her eyes and made her look at him.
"Is it true? Dare you contradict me, sweetheart?" he said, tenderly.
"Don't you belong to me?"
The auth.o.r.ess could find no eloquent reply. No words would obey the bidding of her feelings. With her head at rest at last on her lover's heart, like the veriest bread-and-b.u.t.ter miss, she could only murmur a bald, bare, "Yes,--I--I think so."
"You think so, do you, my love?" he said, ecstatically. "Tell me what makes you think so, then, sweet?"
She closed her eyes, and, lifting her arm, she laid it round his neck with a sigh of bliss.
"I--can't," said she, weakly.
It sounds very inadequate, but the fact remains that this entire want of vocabulary in the usually self-possessed and ready Wynifred was the highest possible charm in the eyes of her lover. To his unutterable delight, he found that his very loftiest dream was realised. He himself was the great want of the girl's life. He comforted her. She was able at once to let go the burden of care and sorrow she had borne so long, and to rest herself utterly in his love. The expression on her white face was that of perfect rest. Her soul had found its true goal. Claud and she were in the centre of the labyrinth at last. Above them on the hillside stood the grey farm, still and lonely in the sunlight as it had stood for more than three centuries. Never had it looked on purer happiness than that of these two obscure and poorly-endowed mortals who yet felt themselves rich indeed in the consciousness
The air was musical with streams, the stir of spring mixed subtly with their joy. This betrothal needed no pomp of circ.u.mstance to enhance its perfection. To Claud and Wynifred to be together was to be blessed.
CHAPTER XLIX.
To marriage all the stories flow And finish there.
_The Letter L._
It was sunset when at last they rose from the fallen log. To Wynifred it was as though every cloud of trouble had melted away out of her sky.
Grief was grief no longer when shared with Claud. His sympathy was so perfect and so tender. It seemed to both of them as if their betrothal were no new thing, as if, in some prior state of being, they had been, as he expressed it, _made to fit each other_.
"Vaguely, I believe I always felt it," he said. "I was always at ease with you. You suited me. I felt you understood me; at times it almost seemed as if you must be thinking with my brain, so wonderfully similar were the workings of our minds. Wyn, we can never be unhappy, you and I, whatever our lot. We are independent of fate so long as we have each other. I wonder how many engaged couples arrive deliberately at that conclusion?"
"I did not think you would ever arrive at it," said Wyn, smiling. "I thought you were a Sybarite, Claud."
"You thought right--I was. But by habit, not by nature. It was Henry Fowler who awoke me to a sense of my own contemptibility. G.o.d bless him."
"G.o.d bless him," echoed the girl, softly.
"Look!" cried Claud, "how the sun catches the windows of the farm-house, and makes them flame. So they looked the first evening I ever saw them--before I knew you, my darling. Shall we go and tell Mrs.
Battis.h.i.+ll that we mean to get married? She will be so pleased."
"Ah, yes, do. I had no heart to go and see her, the place was so full of memories of you. But now!"
It was quite dark when Henry, who had been smoking at the open door of Lower House, heard Claud's quick footfall cross the bridge.
"Well, lad," said he, as the young man came buoyantly towards him, "I'm to congratulate you, I know. There's triumph in your very step."
"I'm about as happy as it's possible for a man to be," said Claud simply, as he gave him his hand. "I believe I should be too happy if it were not for the thought of you."
"Don't you fret for me," was the steady answer.
The moon was up, and threw a clear light on Claud's features as he stood bareheaded, just against the porch. Moved by a sudden impulse of affection, Henry laid his hand on the fair hair, and drew it closer, till it rested against his st.u.r.dy shoulder.
"Claud," he said, "I believe I care more for you two than for any other living creatures. I know you will find your best happiness together, so I'll just not intrude my feelings on you any more. My head's full of plans for you, lad. Do you care to hear them?"
"I should rather think so. Fowler, what a brick you are!"
"Glad you think so. Now, listen. You'll accept that post of overseer I offered you?"
"I should like it of all things."
"Very well, then. I'll build you a house for my wedding gift. She can choose her own site, for most of the land round here is mine, as you know; and she can choose her own plans. I'll have them carried out, whatever they are. All I have will be hers when I'm gone; for Elsa will not want it. She has a large fortune of her own, and her husband's is larger. If my life is spared it will be my happiness to plan for your children, Claud. Do you think you can be happy leading such a retired life--eh?"
"My happiness will be with Wynifred, wherever she is," was the tranquil answer. "I am not a boy, Fowler, and, as you know, my love has not been a fancy of an hour. She has told me that she is delighted at the idea of living here in the Combe; and, as for me--you know how I can enjoy myself in the country."
"I foresee a long useful life for you both," said Henry, as they slowly went indoors in response to the supper-bell and reluctantly shut out the spring moonlight. "I wish I could feel as sure about Elsa."
"Oh, that will be all right," said Claud, encouragingly. "What makes you despond about her?"
"I feel so uncertain of her. What Miss Ellen always said about her is so true. She has a most p.r.o.nounced character of her own, but n.o.body as yet knows what it is. I am afraid her husband expects too much of her."
"Everyone who expects perfection in a woman must needs be disappointed,"
returned Claud. "He will get over it, and find out how to manage her. He is a dreamer, you know--an idealist, any bride must needs fall short of his requirements. He is in love with an abstraction, and there is something particularly concrete about Mrs. Percivale."
"There are some natures, I have heard of, that never trust again where their faith has been once shaken," said Henry, in a low voice. "I--I cannot consider Elsa reliable. She was not to be trusted as a child. I have a horrible suspicion that her husband would feel it terribly hard to forgive deceit."
"She will have no occasion to deceive him," said Claud soothingly. "He will allow her to do whatever she pleases."
"Well, I daresay I am wrong, I wish devoutly that I may be. But I have all along thought the marriage unsuitable. Of course, I foresaw it--from the moment when he saw her lying asleep in her aunt's room, the night we brought the news of her innocence. The circ.u.mstances were such as could not fail to attract such a romantic mind as his. And yet, Claud--yet--I wish things had fallen otherwise. She would have suited Allonby better."
Claud was thankful that Henry was ignorant of the fact which, even now, was causing him the gravest anxiety. If he, Fowler, the gentlest of men, could sorrowfully admit that Elsa was not to be trusted, it was somewhat agitating to reflect that she was probably even now in possession of a secret which the entire London public was burning with curiosity to know. Henry did not believe in the existence of a secret at all. He thought that it was merely gossip, the natural result of Percivale's odd habits and secluded life.
But suppose the entire facts were blazoned abroad--suppose the tale was in everybody's mouth!--Claud shrugged his shoulders. He had warned his friend, he could do no more. The sequel lay between the dainty hands of Percivale's wife. What would she do with it?