Chapter 83
As he pa.s.sed along, his eye was attracted by a newspaper lying on the ground, folded tightly together as if it had fallen from some one's coat pocket.
Stooping absently he picked it up, with intent to lay it on the hall-table near. As he did so, his eye fell on a paragraph scored at the side with a pencil-mark. One word in that paragraph struck him like a blow. He started, stared, half laughed like one whom a chance coincidence has disturbed; then, his eyes travelling on, he slowly whitened and stiffened where he stood, his att.i.tude that of a man thunder-struck.
For a couple of minutes or more he remained motionless, then put up an uncertain hand to his eyes as if to clear away a mist.
After another pause, he laid his left hand firmly against the hall-table near which he stood, and, so fortified, read the pa.s.sage through.
The word which had first caught his eye was Littsdorf, the name of the obscure village of North Germany where his father and his mother lay buried. Glancing higher on the page he saw his father's name printed in full, and his own relations.h.i.+p to him openly proclaimed. So far, true; but the account then became inaccurate, repeating the old story of corruption and suicide which had so long pa.s.sed current.
As it stood it was not the truth as he had told it to his wife, yet there were certain things in it which surely no one could have known except from his wife's lips.
Violently he repelled the thought, as if to think it were a sin. She!
What, she! To whom he had trusted his honor--in whose hands he had laid his life and love--at whose feet he had heaped up the incense of a devotion which was all hers, and had never for a moment leaned towards any other woman!
And yet--yet--_Littsdorf_!
The writer of the paragraph must evidently have visited the place, to collect the names, dates, and inscriptions on the lonely grave of his mother in the little _Friedhof_. Chance might have taken him there; but could chance connect the name of R---- with the name of Percivale?
In comparison with the horror of this thought, the publication of this strange hash of truth and falsehood troubled him but little. Too many false reports of him had been circulated for the public to pay much extra heed to this last. If Henry Fowler questioned him, he could easily tell him the truth; but this thought--this ghastly chill which crept over him--this horrible suspicion that his wife had discussed the innermost core of her husband's heart with some casual acquaintance!
It was not true. It could not be. It must not be, or there seemed an end to all possibility of living on in the shattered temple of his broken idol. No! It must be some other way; some strange, marvellous coincidence must be at the root of it.
He would go to his darling and look her in the face--feel the pressure of her little hand, and curse himself for the unworthiness of his thought.
With a strenuous effort, he steadied himself mentally and struggled for his habitual calm. He determined not to go to his wife in the present excited condition of his nerves, lest he might say something which he should regret. He had not yet fully considered the bearings of the subject. Perhaps after all his fear was groundless. Was not some other solution possible?
Again he went out into the night, and for half-an-hour his restless feet trod the terrace, up and down, up and down, while he tried to banish suspicion.
What a coward and traitor
The big hall clock striking midnight made him start. He must go indoors or he would waken Elsa, and nothing so put her out of temper as to be waked from her first sleep.
He went indoors, shutting out the hot and heavy darkness of the night with a sigh almost of relief, drew the bolts into their places, extinguished the hall lamp, and quietly went upstairs through the silent house.
He expected to find his room in darkness, but, rather to his surprise, lights were burning, and Elsa sat in an armchair, reading a novel. She glanced up, and yawned as he entered.
The room was transformed since the arrival of Mrs. Percivale's trunks and Mrs. Percivale's maid. A ma.s.s of various articles of apparel strewed the chairs and sofa, the dressing table groaned under its load of silver-topped essence-bottles, ivory brushes, hair-curling apparatus, and so forth. The mantel-piece was adorned with knick-knack frames containing photographs of a certain tenor who sang in the opera in Paris, and for whom Elsa had conceived a violent admiration.
The young lady herself was in _deshabille_; she never looked more beautiful than when half-dressed. She wore a white embroidered petticoat and low bodice, much trimmed with lace. Her golden hair streamed all over her creamy neck and arms.
Tossing away her book, she yawned and laughed, lifting said arms and folding them behind her head.
"Oh, is it you? Just fancy! How late it is. I was so tired of trying to undress myself, for Mathilde went to bed the minute she arrived, and I won't let old Jane touch me. So I felt so hot, and I sat down to rest; and this book was so fascinating that" (yawn) "I've been reading ever since." The last five words were almost lost in a large yawn. "Isn't it hot, Leon?"
"Very," he said, as he closed the door, and, drawing up a chair, took a seat at her side. "I am glad you are up still, though. I was afraid I should wake you."
"No; I am not very sleepy. I feel inclined to sit up and finish my book."
"Sit up and talk to me instead," he said, taking one of her hands in his, and looking down lovingly at its slender grace. "The coming back to this place has put me in mind of so many things, my darling, I have been remembering the night--just such a night as this--when I saw you lying asleep on Miss Ellen's bed, dressed in blue----"
"Oh, yes!" her laugh broke in. "That fearful old dressing-gown of Aunt Ellen's! What a fright I felt! I was so ashamed for you to see me. It had shrunk in the wash. Did you notice?"
"My own, I thought you were the most perfect creature I had ever looked upon--as I think still."
"It is rather disappointing, Leon, to find that you don't like me a bit better, now that I really do dress properly, than when I was such a frump. Look at that now," indicating, with a white satin-shod foot, the wondrous toilette she had worn that evening, which lay across a chair near. "That really _is_ pretty, if you like; but it is nonsense to tell me that I looked well in that old blue dressing-gown."
"I tell you that you looked lovely--lovely! There you lay, calmly sleeping, with your life shadowed over by a false accusation!" Falling on his knees beside her chair, he caught her in his arms in an irresistible access of love. Could he suspect her--he, the champion of her innocence when everyone else forsook her?
His head, with its soft curls, lay against her neck. In a pa.s.sing impulse of affection, begotten of the novel she had been reading, she bent down, kissed him, and stroked his hair.
"Be a good boy, and don't suffocate me quite," said she. "It is very hot to-night."
He did not lift his head, but still clasped her close.
"Elsa, my sweet," he said, "I am ashamed to look in your face. I feel a traitor; I have been thinking evil of you, my heart! I want to confess--to tell you of it. May I?"
"I"--yawn--"suppose so. Yes. But don't be long. I think I'll go to bed now."
"To think that I was mean enough, poor-spirited enough, in face of a few suspicious circ.u.mstances, to dream that my wife would break her word to me, would shatter my trust in her, by talking of my private affairs, of the secret which I gave her to guard----"
He felt the girl start in his arms, and a corresponding thrill, a sudden sense of horror, went through him. Letting her go out of his clasp, and lifting his eyes to her face, he saw her crimson from brow to chin.
"What made you say that, Leon?" she asked sharply.
"This," he said, as, scarcely knowing what he did, he laid the paper on her knee.
She took it up and read it quickly through, the color ebbing and coming as she sat.
His heart was beating so fast he could hardly breathe, his whole soul sick with an awful fear. The paper fell on her lap, and she remained still, as if not knowing what to say.
"Elsa," he cried, "how could those words have been written unless the writer of them knew--what you know?"
The girl tossed the paper from her, flinging herself back in her chair defiantly.
"That mean, hateful woman," she cried, with pa.s.sion. "She deserves--what does she not deserve?--when she solemnly vowed to me not to tell a soul----"
She stopped short, the words died away. The blaze in Percivale's eyes seemed to wither and strike her dumb.
"Elsa!" Rising, he stood before her, laying his hands on her shoulders.
"Do you mean to tell me that you have been speaking of what should be sacred in your eyes--no, no! Consider what you are saying."
"Nonsense, Leon!" Angry tears sprang to her eyes. "Let go of me--you hurt! You speak as if I were a criminal."
His face, as his hold relaxed and stepped back, was pitiful to behold.
"To a woman," he said. "To what woman?"
"To that odious Mrs. Orton."