Chapter 64
"You won't say a syllable to her!" cried the dowager, starting up in terror. "She'd never forgive me; she'd turn me out of the house.
Hartledon, _promise_ you won't say a word to her."
He stood back against the window, never speaking.
"She does love you; but I thought I'd frighten you, for you had no right to send Maude home alone; and it made me very cross, because I saw how she felt it. Separation indeed! What can you be thinking of?"
He was thinking of a great deal, no doubt; and his thoughts were as bitter as they could well be. He did not wish to separate; come what might, he felt his place should be by his wife's side as long as circ.u.mstances permitted it.
"Let me give you a word of warning, Lady Kirton. I and my wife will be happy enough together, I daresay, if we are allowed to be; but the style of conversation you have just adopted to me will not conduce to it; it might retaliate on Maude, you see. Do not again attempt it."
"How you have changed!" was her involuntary remark.
"Yes; I am not the yielding boy I was. And now I wish to speak of your son. He seems very ill."
"A troublesome intruding fellow, why can't he keep his ailments to his own barracks?" was the wrathful rejoinder. "I told Maude I wouldn't have him here, and what does she do but write off and tell him to come! I don't like sick folk about me, and never did. What do _you_ want?"
The last question was addressed to Hedges, who had come in unsummoned. It was only a letter for his master. Lord Hartledon took it as a welcome interruption, went outside, and sat down on a garden-seat at a distance.
How he hated the style of attack just made on him; the style of the dowager altogether! He asked himself in what manner he could avoid this for the future. It was a debasing, lowering occurrence, and he felt sure that it could hardly have taken place in his servants' hall. But he was glad he had said what he did about the separation. It might grieve him to part from his wife, but Mr. Carr had warned him that he ought to do it. Certainly, if she disliked him so very much--if she forced it upon him--why, then, it would be an easier task; but he felt sure she did not dislike him. If she had done so before marriage, she had learnt to like him now; and he believed that the bare mention of parting would shock her; and so--his duty seemed to lie in remaining by her side.
He held the letter in his hand for some minutes before he opened it.
The handwriting warned him that it was from Mr. Carr, and he knew that no pleasant news could be in it. In fact, he had placed himself in so unsatisfactory a position as to render anything but bad news next door to an impossibility.
It contained only a few lines--a word of caution Mr. Carr had forgotten to speak when he took leave of Lord Hartledon the previous morning. "Let me advise you not to say anything to those people--Gum, I think the name is--about G.G. It might not be altogether prudent for you to do so.
Should you remain any time at Hartledon, I will come down for a few days and question for myself."
"I've done it already," thought Val, as he folded the letter and returned it to his pocket. "As to my staying any time at Hartledon--not if I know it."
Looking up at the sound of footsteps, he saw Hedges approaching. Never free from a certain apprehension when any unexpected interruption occurred--an apprehension that turned his heart sick, and set his
"Floyd has called, my lord, and is asking to see you. He seems rather--rather concerned and put out. I think it's something about--about the death last summer."
Hedges hardly knew how to frame his words, and Lord Hartledon stared at him.
"Floyd can come to me here," he said.
The miller soon made his appearance, carrying a small case half purse, half pocket-book, in his hand, made of Russian leather, with rims of gold. Val knew it in a moment, in spite of its marks of defacement.
"Do you recognize it, my lord?" asked the miller.
"Yes, I do," replied Lord Hartledon. "It belonged to my brother."
"I thought so," returned the miller. "On the very day before that unfortunate race last year, his lords.h.i.+p was talking to me, and had this in his hand. I felt sure it was the same the moment I saw it."
"He had it with him the day of the race," observed Lord Hartledon. "Mr.
Carteret said he saw it lying in the boat when they started. We always thought it had been lost in the river. Where did you find it?"
"Well, it's very odd, my lord, but I found it buried."
"Buried!"
"Buried in the ground, not far from the river, alongside the path that leads from where his lords.h.i.+p was found to Hartledon. I was getting up some dandelion roots for my wife this morning early, and dug up this close to one. There's where the knife touched it. My lord," added the miller, "I beg to say that I have not opened it. I wiped it, wrapped it in paper, and said nothing to anybody, but came here with it as soon as I thought you'd be up. That lad of mine, Ripper, said last night you were at Hartledon."
The miller was quite honest; and Lord Hartledon knew that when he said he had not opened it, he had not done so. It still contained some small memoranda in his brother's writing, but no money; and this was noticeable, since it was quite certain to have had money in it on that day.
"Those who buried it might have taken it out," he observed, following the bent of his thoughts.
"But who did bury it; and where did they find it, to allow of their burying it?" questioned the miller. "How did they come by it?--that's the odd thing. I am certain it was not in the skiff, for I searched that over myself."
Lord Hartledon said little. He could not understand it; and the incident, with the slips of paper, was bringing his brother all too palpably before him. One of them had concerned himself, though in what manner he would never know now. It ran as follows: "Not to forget Val." Poor fellow!
Poor Lord Hartledon!
"Would your lords.h.i.+p like to come and see the spot where I found it?"
asked the miller.
Lord Hartledon said he should, and would go in the course of the day; and Floyd took his departure. Val sat on for a time where he was, and then went in, locked up the damp case with its tarnished rims, and went on to the presence of his wife.
She was dressed now, but had not left her bedroom. It was evident that she meant to be kind and pleasant with him; different from what she had been, for she smiled, and began a little apology for her tardiness, saying she would get up to breakfast in future.
He motioned her back to her seat on the sofa before the open window, and sat down near her. His face was grave; she thought she had never seen it so much so--grave and firm, and his voice was grave too, but had a kindly tone in it. He took both her hands between his as he spoke; not so much, it seemed in affection, as to impress solemnity upon her.
"Maude, I'm going to ask you a question, and I beg you to answer me as truthfully as you could answer Heaven. Have you any wish that we should live apart from each other?"
"I do not understand you," she answered, after a pause, during which a flush of surprise or emotion spread itself gradually over her face.
"Nay, the question is plain. Have you any wish to separate from me?"
"I never thought of such a thing. Separate from you! What can you mean?"
"Your mother has dropped a hint that you have not been happy with me. I could almost understand her to imply that you have a positive dislike to me. She sought to explain her words away, but certainly spoke them. Is it so, Maude? I fancied something of the sort myself in the earlier days of our marriage."
He turned his head sharply at a sudden sound, but it was only the French clock on the mantelpiece striking eleven.
"Because," he resumed, having waited in vain for an answer, "if such should really be your wish, I will accede to it. I desire your comfort, your happiness beyond any earthly thing; and if living apart from me would promote it, I will sacrifice my own feelings, and you shall not hear a murmur. I would sacrifice my life for you."
She burst into tears. "Are you speaking at all for yourself? Do you wish this?" she murmured.
"No."
"Then how can you be so cruel?"
"I should have thought it unjustifiably cruel, but that it has been suggested to me. Tell me the truth, Maude."
Maude was turning sick with apprehension. She had begun to like her husband during the latter part of their sojourn in London; had missed him terribly during this long period of lonely ennui at Hartledon; and his tender kindness to her for the past few fleeting hours of this their meeting had seemed like heaven as compared with the solitary past. Her whole heart was in her words as she answered:
"When we first married I did not care for you; I almost think I did not like you. Everything was new to me, and I felt as one in an unknown sea.
But it wore off; and if you only knew how I have thought of you, and wished for you here, you would never have said anything so cruel. You are my husband, and you cannot put me from you. Percival, promise me that you will never hint at this again!"
He bent and kissed her. His course lay plain before him; and if an ugly mountain rose up before his mind's eye, shadowing forth not voluntary but forced separation, he would not look at it in that moment.