Chapter 68
"Don't take fancies into your head, Maude."
"Fancies! you know quite well there is no fancy about it. That man holds some unpleasant secret of yours, I am certain."
"Maude!"
"Will you tell it me?"
"I have nothing to tell."
"Ah, well; I expected you wouldn't speak," she answered, with subdued bitterness; as much as to say, that she made a merit of resigning herself to an injustice she could not help. "You have been keeping things from me a long time."
"I have kept nothing from you it would give you pleasure to know. It is not--Maude, pray hear me--it is not always expedient for a man to make known to his wife the jars and rubs he has himself to encounter. A hundred trifles may arise that are best spared to her. That gentleman's business concerned others as well as myself, and I am not at liberty to speak of it."
"You refuse, then, to admit me to your confidence?"
"In this I do. I am the best judge--and you must allow me to be so--of what ought, and what ought not, to be spoken of to you. You may always rely upon my acting for your best happiness, as far as lies in my power."
He had been pacing the room whilst he spoke. Lady Hartledon was in too resentful a mood to answer. Glancing at her, he stood by the mantelpiece and leaned his elbow upon it.
"I want to make known to you another matter, Maude. If I have kept it from you--"
"Does it concern this secret business of yours?" she interrupted.
"No."
"Then let us have done with this first, if you please. Who is Gorton?"
"Who is--Gorton?" he repeated, after a dumbfounded pause. "What Gorton?"
"Well, I don't know; unless it's that man who gave evidence at the inquest on your brother."
Lord Hartledon stared at her, as well he might; and gulped down his breath, which seemed choking him. "But what about Gorton? Why do you ask me the question?"
"Because I fancy he is connected with this trouble. I--I thought I heard you and Mr. Carr mention the name yesterday when you were whispering together. I'm sure I did--there!"
As far as Lord Hartledon remembered, he and Mr. Carr had not been whispering together yesterday; had not mentioned the name of Gorton.
They had done with the subject at that late sitting, the night of the barrister's arrival; who had brought news that the Gorton, that morning tried for a great crime, was _not_ the Gorton of whom they were in search. Lord Hartledon gazed at his wife with questioning eyes, but she persisted in her a.s.sertion. It was sinfully untrue; but how else could she account for knowing the name?
"Do you suppose
"I don't know whether you dreamed it or not, Maude. Mr. Carr has certainly spoken to me since he came of a man of that name; but as certainly not in your hearing. One Gorton was tried for his life on Friday--or almost for his life--and he mentioned to me the circ.u.mstances of the case: housebreaking, accompanied by violence, which ended in death. I cannot understand you, Maude, or the fancies you seem to be taking up."
She saw how it was--he would admit nothing: and she looked straight out across the dreary park, a certain obstinate defiance veiled in her eyes.
By the help of Heaven or earth, she would find out this secret that he refused to disclose to her.
"Almost every action of your life bespeaks concealment," she resumed.
"Look at those letters you received in your dressing-room on Friday night: you just opened them and thrust them unread into your pocket, because I happened to be there. And yet you talk of caring for me! I know those letters contained some secret or other you dare not tell me."
She rose in some temper, and gave the fire a fierce stir.
Lord Hartledon kept her by him.
"One of those letters was from Mr. Carr; and I presume you can make no objection to my hearing from him. The other--Maude, I have waited until now to disclose its contents to you; I would not mar your happiness yesterday."
She looked up at him. Something in his voice, a sad pitying tenderness, caused her heart to beat a shade quicker. "It was a foreign letter, Maude. I think you observed that. It bore the French postmark."
A light broke upon her. "Oh, Percival, it is about Robert! Surely he is not worse!"
He drew her closer to him: not speaking.
"He is not dead?" she said, with a rush of tears. "Ah, you need not tell me; I see it. Robert! Robert!"
"It has been a happy death, Maude, and he is better off. He was quite ready to go. I wish we were as ready!"
Lord Hartledon took out the letter and read the chief portion of it to her. One little part he dexterously omitted, describing the cause of death--disease of the heart.
"But I thought he was getting so much better. What has killed him in this sudden manner?"
"Well, there was no great hope from the first. I confess I have entertained none. Mr. Hillary, you know, warned us it might end either way."
"Was it decline?" she asked, her tears falling.
"He has been declining gradually, no doubt."
"Oh, Percival! Why did you not tell me at once? It seems so cruel to have had all that entertainment yesterday! This is why you did not wish us to dance!"
"And if I had told you, and stopped the entertainment, allowing the poor little fellow to be christened in gloom and sorrow, you would have been the first to reproach me; you might have said it augured ill-luck for the child."
"Well, perhaps I should; yes, I am sure I should. You have acted rightly, after all, Val." And it was a candid admission, considering what she had been previously saying. He bent towards her with a smile, his voice quite unsteady with its earnestness.
"You see now with what motive I kept the letter from you. Maude! cannot this be an earnest that you should trust me for the rest? In all I do, as Heaven is my witness, I place your comfort first and foremost."
"Don't be angry with me," she cried, softening at the words.
He laid his hand on his wife's bent head, thinking how far he was from anger. Anger? He would have died for her then, at that moment, if it might have saved her from the sin and shame that she must share with him.
"Have you told mamma, Percival?"
"Not yet. It would not have been kept from you long had she known it. She is not up yet, I think."
"Who has written?"
"The doctor who attended him."
"You'll let me read the letter?"
"I have written to desire that full particulars may be sent to you: you shall read that one."
The tacit refusal did not strike her. She only supposed the future letter would be more explanatory. He was always anxious for her; and he had written off on the Friday night to ask for a letter giving fuller particulars, whilst avoiding mention of the cause of death.