Chapter 46
"That is a good idea; get it ready."
"What shall we put under it? A rhinchites?"
"That will do."
Lorand lit the spirit-lamp, which threw light on the subject under the magnifying gla.s.s; then he first looked into it himself, to find the correct focus. Enraptured, he cried out:
"Look here! That fabled armor of Homer's _Iliad_ is not to be compared with this little insect's wing-s.h.i.+elds. They are nothing but emerald and enamelled gold."
"Indeed it is so."
"And now listen to me: between the two wings of this little insect there is a tiny parasite or worm, which in its turn has two eyes, a life, and life-blood flowing in its veins, and in this worm's stomach other worms are living, impenetrable to the eye of this microscope."
"I understand," said the atheist, glancing into Lorand's eyes. "You are explaining to me that the immensity of the world of creation reaching to awful eternity is only equalled by the immensity of the descent to the shapeless nonent.i.ty; and that is your G.o.d!"
The sublime calm of Lorand's face indicated that that was his idea.
"My dear boy," said Topandy, placing his two hands on Lorand's shoulder, "with that idea I have long been acquainted. I, too, fall down before immensity, and recognize that we represent but one cla.s.s in the upward direction towards the stars, and one degree in the descent to the moth and rust that corrupt; and perhaps that worm, that I killed in order to take rapt pleasure in its wings, thought itself the middle of eternity round which the world is whirling like Plato's featherless two-footed animals; and when at the door of death it uttered its last cry, it probably thought that this cry for vengeance would be noted by some one, as when at Warsaw four thousand martyrs sang with their last breath, 'All is not yet lost.'"
"That is not my faith, sir. The history of the ephemeral insect is the history of a day,--that of a man means a whole life; the history of nations means centuries, that of the world eternity; and in eternity justice comes to each one in irremediable and unalterable succession."
"I grant that, my boy; and I allow, too, that the comets are certainly claimants to the world whose suits have been deferred to this long justice, who one day will all recover their inheritances, from which some tyrant sun has driven them out; but you must also acknowledge, my child, that for us, the thoughtful worms, or stars, if you like, which can express their thoughts in spirited curses, providence has no care.
For everything, everything there is a providence: be it so, I believe it. But for the living kind there is none, unless we take into account the rare occasions when a plague visits mankind, because it is too closely spread over the earth and requires thinning."
"Sir, many misfortunes have I suffered on earth, very many, and such as fate distributes indiscriminately; but it has never destroyed--my faith."
"No misfortune has ever attacked me. It is not suffering that has made me sceptical. My life has always been to my taste. Should some one divide up his property in reward for prayer, I should not benefit one crumb from it.--It is hypocrites who have forcibly driven me this way.
Perhaps, were I not surrounded by such, I should keep silence about my unbelief, I should not scandalize others with it, I should not seek to persecute the world's hypocrites with what they call blasphemy. Believe me, my boy, of a million men, all but one regard Providence as a rich creditor, from whom they may always borrow--but when it is a question of paying the interest, then only that one remembers it."
"And that one is enough to hallow the ideal!"
"That one?--but you will not be that one!"
Lorand, astonished, asked:
"Why not?"
"Because, if you remain long in my vicinity, you must without fail turn into such a universal disbeliever as I am."
Lorand smiled to himself.
"My child," said Topandy, "you will not catch the infection from me, who am always sneering and causing scandals, but from that other who prays to the sound of bells."
"You mean Sarvolgyi?"
"Whom else could I mean? You will meet this man every day. And in the end you will say just as I do--'If one must go to heaven in this
"Well, and what is this Sarvolgyi?"
"A hypocrite, who lies to all the saints in turn, and would deceive the eyes of the archangels if they did not look after themselves."
"You have a very low opinion of the man."
"A low opinion? That is the only good thing in my heart, that I despise the fellow."
"Simply because he is pious? In the world of to-day, however, it is a kind of courage to dare to show one's piety outwardly before a world of scepticism and indifference. I should like to defend him against you."
"Would you? Very well. Let us start at once. Draw up a chair and listen to me. I shall be the devil's advocate. I shall tell you a story concerning this fellow; I was merely a simple witness to the whole. The man never did me any harm. I tell you once again that I have no complaint to make either against mankind or against any beings that may exist above or below. Sit beside me, my boy."
Lorand first of all stirred up the fire in the fire-place, and put out the spirit lamp of the microscope, so that the room was lighted only by the red glare of the log-fire and the moon, which was now rising above the horizon and shed her pale radiance through the window.
"In my younger days I had a very dear friend, a relation, with whom I had always gone to school and such fast comrades were we that even in the cla.s.s-room we sat always side by side. My comrade was unapproachably first in the cla.s.s, and I came next; sometime between us like a dividing wall came this fellow Sarvolgyi, who was even then a great flatterer and sneak, and in this way sometimes drove me out of my place--and young schoolboys think a great deal of their own particular places. Of course I was even then so G.o.dless that they could not make sufficient complaints against me. Later, during the French war, as the schools suffered much, we were both sent together to Heidelberg. The devil brought Sarvolgyi after us. His parents were parvenues. What our parents did they were always bound to imitate. They might have sent their boy to Jena, Berlin, or Nineveh; but he must come just where we were."
"You have never mentioned your friend's name," said Lorand, who had listened in anguish to the commencement of the story.
"Indeed?--Why there's really no need for the name. He was a friend of mine. As far as the story is concerned it doesn't matter what they called him. Still that you may not think I am relating a fable, I may as well tell you his name. It was Lorincz aronffy."
A cold numbness seized Lorand when he heard his father's name. Then his heart began suddenly to beat at a furious pace. He felt he was standing before the crypt door, whose secret he had so often striven to fathom.
"I never knew a fairer figure, a n.o.bler nature, a warmer heart than he had," continued Topandy. "I admired and loved him, not merely as my relation, but as the ideal of the young men of the day. The common knowledge of all kinds of little secrets, such as only young people understand among themselves, united us more closely in that bond of friends.h.i.+p which is usually deferred until later days. At that time there broke out all over Europe those liberal political views, which had such a fascinating influence generally on young men. Here too there was an awakening of what is called national feeling; great philosophers even turned against one another with quite modern opposition in public as well as in private life. All this made more intimate the relations which had till then been mere childish habit.
"We were two years at the academy; those two years were pa.s.sed amidst enough noise and pleasure. Had we money, we spent it together; had we none, we starved together. For one another we went empty-handed, for one another, we fought, and were put in prison. Then we met Sarvolgyi very seldom; the academy is a great forest and men are not forced together as on the benches of a grammar-school.
"Just at the very climax of the French war, the idea struck us to edit a written newspaper among ourselves."
(Lorand began to listen with still greater interest.)
"We travestied with humorous score in our paper all that the 'Augsburger' delivered with great pathos: those who read laughed at it.
"However, there came an end to our amus.e.m.e.nt, when one fine day we received the 'consilium abeundi.'
"I was certainly not very much annoyed. So much transcendental science, so much knowledge of the world had been driven into me already, that I longed to go home to the company of the village s.e.xton, who, still believed that anecdotes and fables were the highest science.
"Only two days were allowed us at Heidelberg to collect our belongings and say adieu to our so-called 'treasures.' During these two days I only saw aronffy twice: once on the morning of the first day, when he came to me in a state of great excitement, and said, 'I have the scoundrel by the ear who betrayed us!--If I don't return, follow in my tracks and avenge me.' I asked him why he did not choose me for his second, but he replied: 'Because you also are interested and must follow me.' And then on the evening of the second day he came home again, quite dispirited and out of sorts! I spoke to him; he would scarcely answer; and when I finally insisted: 'perhaps you killed someone?' he answered determinedly, 'Yes.'"
"And who was that man?" inquired Lorand, taken aback.
"Don't interrupt me. You shall know soon," Topandy muttered.
"From that day aronffy was completely changed. The good-humored, spirited young fellow became suddenly a quiet, serious, sedate man, who would never join us in any amus.e.m.e.nt. He avoided the world, and I remarked that in the world he did his best to avoid me.
"I thought I knew why that was. I thought I knew the secret of his earnestness. He had murdered a man whom he had challenged to a duel.
That weighed upon his mind. He could not be cold-blooded enough to drive even such a bagatelle from his head. Other people count it a 'bravour,'
or at most suffer from the persecutions of others--not of themselves. He would soon forget it, I thought, as he grew older.
"Yet my dear friend remained year by year a serious-minded man, and when later on I met him, his society was for me so unenjoyable that I never found any pleasure in frequenting it.
"Still, as soon as he returned home, he got married. Even before our trip to Heidelberg he had become engaged to a very pleasant, pretty, and quiet young girl. They were in love with each other. Still aronffy remained always gloomy. In the first year of his marriage a son was born to him. Later another. They say both the sons were handsome, clever boys. Yet that never brightened him. Immediately after the honeymoon he went to the war, and behaved there like one who thinks the sooner he is cut off the better. Later, all the news I received of him confirmed my idea that aronffy was suffering from an incurable mental disease.--Does a man, the candle of whose life we have snuffed out deserve that?"