Chapter 86
"Y-es," said Eileen faintly. Lying there, the deep azure of her eyes starred with tears, a new tremor altered her mouth, and the tight-curled upper lip quivered. Her heart, too, had begun its heavy, unsteady response in recognition of her lover's name; she turned partly away from Nina, burying her face in her brilliant hair; and beside her slim length, straight and tense, her arms lay, the small hands contracting till they had closed as tightly as her teeth.
It was no child, now, who lay there, fighting down the welling desolation; no visionary adolescent grieving over the colourless ashes of her first romance; not even the woman, socially achieved, intelligently and intellectually in love. It was a girl, old enough to realise that the adoration she had given was not wholly spiritual, that her delight in her lover and her response to him was not wholly of the mind, not so purely of the intellect; that there was still more, something sweeter, more painful, more bewildering that she could give him, desired to give--nay, that she could not withhold even with sealed eyes and arms outstretched in the darkness of wakeful hours, with her young heart straining in her breast and her set lips crus.h.i.+ng back the unuttered cry.
Love! So that was it!--the need, the pain, the bewilderment, the hot sleeplessness, the mad audacity of a blessed dream, the flushed awakening, stunned rapture--and then the gray truth, bleaching the rose tints from the fading tapestries of slumberland, leaving her flung across her pillows, staring at daybreak.
Nina had laid a cool smooth hand across her forehead, pus.h.i.+ng back the hair--a light caress, sensitive as an unasked question.
But there was no response, and presently the elder woman rose and went out along the landing, and Eileen heard her laughingly greeting Boots, who had arrived post-haste on news of Drina's plight.
"Don't be frightened; the little wretch carried tons of indigestible stuff to her room and sat up half the night eating it. Where's Philip?"
"I don't know. Here's a special delivery for him. I signed for it and brought it from the house. He'll be here from the Hook directly, I fancy. Where is Drina?"
"In bed. I'll take you up. Mind you, there'll be a scene, so nerve yourself."
They went upstairs together. Nina knocked, peeped in, then summoned Mr.
Lansing.
"Oh, Boots, Boots!" groaned Drina, lifting her arms and encircling his neck, "I don't think I am ever going to get well--I don't believe it, no matter what they say. I am glad you have come; I wanted you--and I'm very, very sick.... Are you happy to be with me?"
Boots sat on the bedside, the feverish little head in his arms, and Nina was a trifle surprised to see how seriously he took it.
"Boots," she said, "you look as though your last hour had come. Are you letting that very bad child frighten you? Drina, dear, mother doesn't mean to be horrid, but you're too old to whine.... It's time for the medicine, too--"
"Oh, mother! the nasty kind?"
"Certainly. Boots, if you'll move aside--"
"Let Boots give it to me!" exclaimed the child tragically. "It will do no good; I'm not getting better; but if I must take it, let Boots hold me--and the spoon!"
She sat straight up in bed with a
Half an hour later she was asleep, holding fast to Boots's sleeve, and that young gentleman sat in a chair beside her, discussing with her pretty mother the plans made for Gladys and Gerald on their expected arrival.
Eileen, pale and heavy-lidded, looked in on her way to some afternoon affair, nodding unsmiling at Boots.
"Have you been rifling the pantry, too?" he whispered. "You lack your usual chromatic symphony."
"No, Boots; I'm just tired. If I wasn't physically afraid of Drina, I'd get you to run off with me--anywhere.... What is that letter, Nina?
For me?"
"It's for Phil. Boots brought it around. Leave it on the library table, dear, when you go down."
Eileen took the letter and turned away. A few moments later as she laid it on the library table, her eyes involuntarily noted the superscription written in the long, angular, fas.h.i.+onable writing of a woman.
And slowly the inevitable question took shape within her.
How long she stood there she did not know, but the points of her gloved fingers were still resting on the table and her gaze was still concentrated on the envelope when she felt Selwyn's presence in the room, near, close; and looked up into his steady eyes. And knew he loved her.
And suddenly she broke down--for with his deep gaze in hers the overwrought spectre had fled!--broke down, no longer doubting, bowing her head in her slim gloved hands, thrilled to the soul with the cert.i.tude of their unhappiness eternal, and the dreadful pleasure of her share.
"What is it?" he made out to say, managing also to keep his hands off her where she sat, bowed and quivering by the table.
"N-nothing. A--a little crisis--over now--nearly over.
It was that letter--other women writing you.... And I--outlawed--tongue-tied.... Don't look at me, don't wait.
I--I am going out."
He went to the window, stood a moment, came back to the table, took his letter, and walked slowly again to the window.
After a while he heard the rustle of her gown as she left the room, and a little later he straightened up, pa.s.sed his hand across his tired eyes, and, looking down at the letter in his hand, broke the seal.
It was from one of the nurses, Miss Ca.s.son, and shorter than usual:
"Mrs. Ruthven is physically in perfect health, but yesterday we noted a rather startling change in her mental condition. There were, during the day, intervals that seemed perfectly lucid. Once she spoke of Miss Bond as 'the other nurse,' as though she realised something of the conditions surrounding her. Once, too, she seemed astonished when I brought her a doll, and asked me:' Is there a child here? Or is it for a charity bazaar?'
"Later I found her writing a letter at my desk. She left it unfinished when she went to drive--a mere sc.r.a.p. I thought it best to enclose it, which I do, herewith."
The enclosure he opened:
"Phil, dear, though I have been very ill I know you are my own husband.
All the rest was only a child's dream of terror--"
And that was all--only this sc.r.a.p, firmly written in the easy flowing hand he knew so well. He studied it for a moment or two, then resumed Miss Ca.s.son's letter:
"A man stopped our sleigh yesterday, asking if he was not speaking to Mrs. Ruthven. I was a trifle worried, and replied that any communication for Mrs. Ruthven could be sent to me.
"That evening two men--gentlemen apparently--came to the house and asked for me. I went down to receive them. One was a Dr. Mallison, the other said his name was Thomas B. Hallam, but gave no business address.
"When I found that they had come without your knowledge and authority, I refused to discuss Mrs. Ruthven's condition, and the one who said his name was Hallam spoke rather peremptorily and in a way that made me think he might be a lawyer.
"They got nothing out of me, and they left when I made it plain that I had nothing to tell them.
"I thought it best to let you know about this, though I, personally, cannot guess what it might mean."
Selwyn turned the page:
"One other matter worries Miss Bond and myself. The revolver you sent us at my request has disappeared. We are nearly sure Mrs. Ruthven has it--you know she once dressed it as a doll--calling it her army doll!--but now we can't find it. She has hidden it somewhere, out of doors in the shrubbery, we think, and Miss Bond and I expect to secure it the next time she takes a fancy to have all her dolls out for a 'lawn-party.'
"Dr. Wesson says there is no danger of her doing any harm with it, but wants us to secure it at the first opportunity--"
He turned the last page; on the other side was merely the formula of leave-taking and Miss Ca.s.son's signature.
For a while he stood in the centre of the room, head bent, narrowing eyes fixed; then he folded the letter, pocketed it, and walked to the table where a directory lay.
He found the name, Hallam, very easily--Thomas B. Hallam, lawyer, junior in the firm of Spencer, Boyd & Hallam. They were attorneys for Jack Ruthven; he knew that.