Chapter 75
"Do you know who I am?" he asked, in a subdued voice, after he had recovered, to some extent, his feelings.
The child looked again into his face, but longer and more earnestly.
Then, without answering, he turned and looked at the portrait on the wall.
"Do you know who I am, dear?" repeated Mr. Crawford.
"No, sir," replied the child; and then again turned to gaze upon the picture.
"Who is that?" and Mr. Crawford pointed to the object that so fixed the little boy's attention.
"My mother." And as he said these words, he laid his head down upon the bosom of his unknown relative, and shrunk close to him, as if half afraid because of the mystery that, in his infantile mind, hung around the picture on the wall.
Moved by an impulse that he could not restrain, Mr. Crawford drew his arms around the child and hugged him to his bosom. Pride gave way; the iron will was bent; the sternly uttered vow was forgotten.
There is power for good in the presence of a little child. Its sphere of innocence subdues and renders impotent the evil spirits that rule in the hearts of selfish men. It was so in this case. Mr.
Crawford might have withstood the moving appeal of even his daughter's presence, changed by grief, labor, and suffering, as she was. But his anger, upon which he had suffered the sun to go down, fled before her artless, confiding, innocent child. He thought not of f.a.n.n.y--as the wilful woman, acting from the dictate of her own pa.s.sions or feelings; but as a little child, lying upon his bosom--as a little child, singing and dancing around him--as a little child, with, to him, the face of a cherub; and the sainted mother of that innocent one by her side.
When the Friend came for the little boy; Mr. Crawford said to him, in a low voice--made low to hide his emotion--
"I will keep the child."
"From its mother?"
"No. Bring the mother, and the other child. I have room for them all."
A sunny smile pa.s.sed over the benevolent countenance of the Friend as he hastily left the room.
Mrs. Logan, worn down by exhausting labor, had at last been forced to give up. When she did give up, every long strained nerve of mind and body instantly relaxed; and she became almost as weak and helpless as an infant. While in this state, she was accidentally discovered by the kind-hearted old Friend, who, without her being aware of what he was going to do, made his successful attack upon her father's feelings. He trusted to nature and a good cause, and did not trust in vain.
"Come, Mrs. Logan," said the kind woman, with whom Fariny was still boarding, an hour or so after little Henry had been dressed up to take a walk--where, (sic) the the mother did not know or think,--"the good Friend, who was here this morning, says you must ride out. He has brought a carriage for you, It will do you good, I know. He is very kind. Come, get yourself ready."
Mrs. Logan was lying upon her bed.
"I do not feel able to get up," she replied. "I do not wish to ride out."
"Oh, yes, you must go. The pure, fresh air, and the change, will do you more good than
"Where is Henry?" asked the mother.
"He has not returned yet. But, come! The carriage is waiting at the door."
"Won't you go with me?"
"I would with pleasure--but I cannot leave home. I have so much to do."
After a good deal of persuasion, f.a.n.n.y at length made the effort to get herself ready to go out. She was so weak, that she tottered about the floor like one intoxicated. But the woman with whom she lived, a.s.sisted and encouraged her, until she was at length ready to go. Then the Quaker came up to her room, and with the tenderness and care of a father, supported her down stairs, and when she had taken her place in the vehicle, entered, with her youngest child in his arms, and sat by her side, speaking to her, as he did so, kind and encouraging words.
The carriage was driven slowly, for a few squares, and then stopped.
Scarcely had the motion ceased, when the door was suddenly opened, and Mr. Crawford stood before his daughter.
"My poor child!" he said, in a tender, broken voice, as f.a.n.n.y, overcome by his unexpected appearance, sunk forward into his arms.
When the suffering young creature opened her eyes again, she was upon her own bed, in her own room, in her old home. Her father sat by her side, and held one of her hands tightly. There were tears in his eyes, and he tried to speak; but, though his lips moved, there came from them no articulate sound.
"Do you forgive me, father? Do you love me, father?" said f.a.n.n.y, in a tremulous whisper, half rising from her pillow, and looking eagerly, almost agonizingly, into her father's face.
"I have nothing to forgive," murmured the father, as he drew his daughter towards him, so that her head could lie against his bosom.
"But do you love me, father? Do you love me as of old?" said the daughter.
He bent down and kissed her; and now the tears fell from his eyes and lay warm and glistening upon her face.
"As of old," he murmured, laying his cheek down upon that of his child, and clasping her more tightly in his arms. The long pent up waters of affection were rus.h.i.+ng over his soul and obliterating the marks of pride, anger, and the iron will that sustained them in their cruel dominion. He was no longer a strong man, stern and rigid in his purpose; but a child, with a loving and tender heart.
There was light again in his dwelling; not the bright light of other times; for now the rays were mellowed. But it was light. And there was music again; not so joyful; but it was music, and its spell over his heart was deeper and its influence more elevating.
The man with the iron will and stern purpose was subdued, and the power that subdued him, was the presence of a little child.
A CURE FOR LOW SPIRITS.
A HOUSEHOLD SKETCH.
FROM some cause, real or imaginary, I felt low spirited. There was a cloud upon my feelings, and I could not smile as usual, nor speak in a tone of cheerfulness. As a natural result, the light of my countenance being gone, all things around me were in shadow. My husband was sober, and had little to say; the children would look strangely at me when I answered, their questions, or spoke to them for any purpose, and my domestics moved about in a quiet manner, and when they addressed me, did so in a tone more subdued than usual.
This re-action upon my state, only made darker the clouds that veiled my spirits. I was conscious of this, and was conscious that the original cause of my depression was entirely inadequate, in itself, to produce the result which had followed. Under this feeling, I made an effort to rally myself, but in vain; and sank lower from the very struggle to rise above the gloom that overshadowed me.
When my husband came home at dinner time, I tried to meet him with a smile; but I felt that the light upon my countenance was feeble, and of brief duration. He looked at me earnestly, and, in his kind and gentle way, inquired if I felt no better, affecting to believe that my ailment was one of the body instead of the mind. But I scarcely answered him, and I could see that he felt hurt. How much more wretched did I become at this. Could I have then retired to my chamber, and, alone, give my full heart vent in a pa.s.sion of tears, I might have obtained relief to my feelings. But, I could not do this.
While I sat at the table, forcing a little food into my mouth for appearance sake, my husband said--
"You remember the fine lad who has been for some time in our store?"
I nodded my head, but the question did not awaken in my mind the slightest interest.
"He has not made his appearance for several days; and I learned this morning, on sending to the house of his mother, that he was very ill."
"Ah!" was my indifferent response. Had I spoken what was in my mind, I would have said--"I'm sorry, but I can't help it." I did not, at the moment, feel the smallest interest in the lad.
"Yes," added my husband, "and the person who called to let me know about it, expressed his fears that Edward would not get up again."
"What ails him?" I inquired.