Chapter 29
"Is this then your intimate abode?" I asked, half-smiling.
"Could I desire a snugger one?" she answered gaily. "Here is both warmth and shelter; and a clean bed of husks; and if I am lonely, there be friendly little mice to bear me company o' nights. And here my mice and I lie close and listen to the owls."
"And you were reared in comfort!" I said with sudden bitterness.
She looked up quickly, then, shrugging her shoulders:
"There is still some comfort for those who can remember their brief day of ease--none for those who never knew it. I have had days of comfort."
"What age are you, Lois?"
"Twenty, I think."
"Scarce that!" I insisted.
"Do I not seem so?" she asked, smiling.
"Eighteen at most--save for the--sadness--in your eyes that now and then surprises me--if it be sadness that I read there."
"Perhaps it is the wisdom I have learned--a knowledge that means sadness, Euan. Do my eyes betray it, then, so plainly?"
"Sometimes," I said, A faint sound from below arrested our attention.
Lois whispered:
"It is Mrs. Rannock weeping. She often weeps like that at night. And so would I, Euan, had I beheld the horrors which this poor thing was born to look upon--G.o.d comfort her! Have you never heard how the destructives slew her husband, her baby, and her little sister eight years old? The baby lay in its cradle smiling up at its murderers. Even the cruel Senecas turned aside, forbearing to harm it. But one of Walter Butler's painted Tories spies it and bawls out: 'This also will grow to be a rebel!' And with that he speared the little smiling creature on his bayonet, tossed it, and caught it--Oh, Euan--Euan!"
Shuddering, she flung her arm across her face as though to shut out the vision.
"That villainy," said I, "was done by Newberry or Chrysler, if I remember. And Newberry we caught and hung before we went to Westchester. I saw him hang with that wretched Lieutenant Hare. G.o.d!
how we cheered by regiments marching back to camp!"
Through the intense stillness I could still hear the woman sobbing in the dark below.
"Lois--little Lois," I whispered, touching her trembling arm with a hand quite as unsteady.
She
I said: "Do you then wonder that the thought of you, roaming these woods alone, is become a living dread to me, so that I think of nothing else?"
She smiled wanly, and sat thinking for a while, her pale face pressed between her hands. Presently she looked up.
"Are we so truly friends then, Euan? At the Spring Waiontha it almost seemed as though it could come true."
"You know it has come true."
"Do I?"
"Do you not know it, little Lois?"
"I seem to know it, somehow.... Tell me, Euan, does a true and deathless friends.h.i.+p with a man--with you--mean that I am to strip my heart of every secret, hiding nothing from you?"
"Dare you do it, Lois?" I said laughingly, yet thrilled with the candour of her words.
"I could not let you think me better than I am. That would be stealing friends.h.i.+p from you. But if you give it when you really know me--that will be dear and wonderful----" She drew a swift breath and smiled.
Surprised, then touched, I met the winning honesty of her gaze in silence.
"Unless you truly know me--unless you know to whom you give your friends.h.i.+p--you can not give it rightly. Can you, Euan? You must learn all that I am and have been, Is not this necessary?"
"I--I ask you nothing," I stammered. "All that I know of you is wonderful enough----" Suddenly the danger of the moment opened out before me, checking my very thoughts.
She laid both hands against her temple, pressing them there till her cheeks cooled. So she pondered for a while, her gaze remote. Then, looking fearlessly at me:
"Euan, I am of that sad company of children born without name. I have lately dared to guess who was my father. Presently I will tell you who he was." Her grey and troubled eyes gazed into s.p.a.ce now, dreamily. "He died long since. But my mother is living. And I believe she lives near Catharines-town to-day!"
"What! Why do you think so?" I exclaimed, astounded.
"Is not the Vale Yndaia there, near Catharines-town?"
"Yes. But why----"
"Then listen, Euan. Every year upon a certain day--the twelfth of May--no matter where I chance to be, always outside my door I find two little beaded moccasins. I have had them thirteen times in thirteen years. And every year--save the last two--the moccasins have been made a little larger, as though to fit my growing years. Now, for the last two years, they have remained the same in size, fitting me perfectly.
And--I never yet have worn them more than to fit them on and take them off."
"Why?" I asked vaguely.
"I save them for my journey."
"What journey?"
"The long trail through the Long House--straight through it, Euan, to the Western Door. That is the trail I dream of."
"Who leaves these strange moccasins at your threshold every year?"
"I do not know."
"From where do you suppose they come?" I asked, amazed.
"From Catharines-town."
"Do you believe your mother sends them?"
"Oh, Euan, I know it now! Until two years ago I did not understand. But now I know it!"
"Why are you so certain Lois? Is any written message sent with them?"
"Always within one of each pair of moccasins is sewed a strip of silver birch. Always the message written is the same; and this is what is always written: