Chapter 14
"Six weeks ago come Sunday."
The girl's knees weakened and she sat down suddenly on the stairs.
"Dead? My Aunt Emeline?"
"She had a stroke a year ago. It made her a little stiff in one leg.
But she wouldn't tell you--wouldn't bother you. She was that proud of you living as you did with all those kings and queens. 'No,' sez she to me, 'no, Martha, I ain't a-goin' to worry Palla. She and the Queen have got their hands full, what with the wicked way those Roos.h.i.+an people are behaving. No,' sez she, 'I'll git well by the time she comes home for a visit after the war----'"
Martha's spectacles became dim. She seated herself on the stairs and wiped them on her ap.r.o.n.
"It came in the night," she said, peering blindly at Palla.... "I wondered why she was late to breakfast. When I went up she was lying there with her eyes open--just as natural----"
Palla's head dropped and she covered her face with both hands.
CHAPTER IV
There remained, now, nothing to keep Palla in Shadow Hill.
She had never intended to stay there, anyway; she had meant to go to France.
But already there appeared to be no chance for that in the scheme of things. For the boche had begun to squeal for mercy; the frightened swine was squirting life-blood as he rushed headlong for the home sty across the Rhine; his death-stench sickened the world.
Thicker, ranker, reeked the b.l.o.o.d.y abomination in the nostrils of civilisation, where Justice strode ahead through h.e.l.l's own devastation, kicking the boche to death, kicking him through Belgium, through France, out of Light back into Darkness, back, back to his stinking sty.
The rus.h.i.+ng sequence of events in Europe since Palla's arrival in America bewildered the girl and held in abeyance any plan she had hoped to make.
The whole world waited, too, astounded, incredulous as yet of the cataclysmic debacle, slowly realising that the super-swine were but swine--maddened swine, devil driven. And that the Sea was very near.
No romance ever written approached in wild extravagance the story of doom now unfolding in the daily papers.
Palla read and strove to comprehend--read, laid aside her paper, and went about her own business, which alone seemed dully real.
And these new personal responsibilities--now that her aunt was dead--must have postponed any hope of an immediate departure for France.
Her inheritance under her aunt's will, the legal details, the inventory of scattered acreage and real estate, plans for their proper administration, consultations with an attorney, conferences with Mr.
Pawling, president of the local bank--such things had occupied and involved her almost from the moment of her arrival home.
At first the endless petty details exasperated her--a girl fresh from the tremendous tragedy of things where, one after another, empires were cras.h.i.+ng amid the conflagration of a continent. And she could not now keep her mind on such wretched little personal matters while her heart battered pa.s.sionately at her breast, sounding the exciting summons to active service.
To concentrate her thoughts on mortgages and deeds when she was burning to be on her way to France--to confer power of attorney, audit bills for taxes, for up-keep of line fences, when she was mad to go to New York and find out how quickly she could be sent to France--such things seemed more than a girl could endure.
In Shadow Hill there was scarcely anything to remind her that the fate of the world was being settled for all time.
Only for red service flags here and there, here and there a burly figure in olive-drab swaggering along Main Street, nothing except war-bread, the shortage of coal and sugar, and outrageous prices reminded her that the terrific drama was still being played beyond the ocean to the diapason of an orchestra thundering from England to Asia and from Africa to the Arctic.
But already the eternal signs were pointing to the end. She read
With the signing of the armistice, all dreams of service ended definitely for her.
False news of the suspension of hostilities should have, in a measure, prepared her. Yet, the ultimately truthful news that the war was over made her almost physically ill. For the girl's ardent religious fervour had consumed her emotional energy during the incessant excitement of the past three years. But now, for this natural ardour, there was no further employment. There was no outlet for mind or heart so lately on fire with spiritual fervour. G.o.d was no more; her friend was dead. And now the war had ended. And n.o.body in the world had any need of her--any need of this woman who needed the world--and love--spiritual perhaps, perhaps profane.
The false peace demonstration, which set the bells of Shadow Hill clanging in the wintry air and the mill whistles blowing from distant villages, left her tired, dazed, indifferent. The later celebration, based on official news, stirred her spiritually even less. And she felt ill.
There was a noisy night celebration on Main Street, but she had no desire to see it. She remained indoors reading the _Star_ in the sitting room with Max, the cat. She ate no dinner. She cried herself to sleep.
However, now that the worst had come--as she navely informed the shocked Martha next morning--she began to feel relieved in a restless, feverish way.
A healthful girl acc.u.mulates much bodily energy over night; Palla's pa.s.sionate little heart and her active mind completed a storage battery very quickly charged--and very soon over-charged--and an outlet was imperative.
Always, so far in her brief career, she had had adequate outlets. As a child she found satisfaction in violent exercises; in flinging herself headlong into every outdoor game, every diversion among the urchins of her circle. As a school girl her school sports and her studies, and whatever social pleasures were offered, had left the safety valve open.
Later, mistress of her mother's modest fortune, and grown to restless, intelligent womanhood, Palla had gone abroad with a married school-friend, Leila Vance. Under her auspices she had met nice people and had seen charming homes in England--Colonel Vance being somebody in the county and even somebody in London--a diffident, reticent, agriculturally inclined land owner and colonel of yeomanry. And long ago dead in Flanders. And his wife a nurse somewhere in France.
But before the war a year's travel and study had furnished the necessary outlet to Palla Dumont. And then--at a charity bazaar--a pa.s.sionate friends.h.i.+p had flashed into sacred flame--a friends.h.i.+p born at sight between her and the little Grand d.u.c.h.ess Marie.
War was beginning; Colonel Vance was dead; but imperial inquiry located Leila. And imperial inquiry was satisfied. And Palla became the American companion and friend of the youthful Grand d.u.c.h.ess Marie.
For three years that blind devotion had been her outlet--that and their mutual inclination for a life to be dedicated to G.o.d.
What was to be her outlet now?--now that the little Grand d.u.c.h.ess was dead--now that G.o.d, as she had conceived him, had ceased to exist for her--now that the war was ended, and n.o.body needed that warm young heart of hers--that ardent little heart so easily set throbbing with the pa.s.sionate desire to give.
The wintry sunlight flooded the familiar sitting room, setting potted geraniums ablaze, gilding the leather backs of old books, staining prisms on the crystal chandelier with rainbow tints, and causing Max, the family cat, to blink until the vertical pupils of his amber eyes seemed to disappear entirely.
There was some snow outside--not very much--a wild bird or two among the naked apple trees; green edges, still, where snowy lawn and flower border met.
And there was colour in the leafless shrubbery, too--wine-red stems of dogwood, ash-blue berry-canes, and the tangled green and gold of willows. And over all a pale cobalt sky, and a snow-covered hill, where, in the woods, crows sat cawing on the taller trees, and a slow goshawk sailed.
A rich land, this, even under ice and snow--a rich, rolling land hinting of fat furrows and heavy grain; and of spicy, old-time gardens where the evenings were heavy with the scent of phlox and lilies.
Palla, her hands behind her back, seeming very childish and slim in her black gown, stood searching absently among the books for something to distract her--something in harmony with the restless glow of hidden fires hot in her restless heart.
But war is too completely the great destroyer, killing even the serener pleasures of the mind, corrupting normal appet.i.te, dulling all interest except in what pertains to war.
War is the great vandal, too, obliterating even that interest in the cla.s.sic past which is born of respect for tradition. War slays all yesterdays, so that human interest lives only in the fierce and present moment, or blazes anew at thought of what may be to-morrow.
Only the chronicles of the burning hour can hold human attention where war is. For last week is already a decade ago; and last year a dead century; but to-day is vital and to-morrow is immortal.
It was so with Palla. Her listless eyes swept the ranks of handsome, old-time books--old favourites bound in gold and leather, masters of English prose and poetry gathered and garnered by her grand-parents when books were rare in Shadow Hill.
Not even the modern masters appealed to her--masters of fiction acclaimed but yesterday; virile thinkers in philosophy, in science; enfranchised poets who had stridden out upon Olympus only yesterday to defy the old G.o.d's lightning with unshackled strophes--and sometimes unb.u.t.toned themes.
But it was with Palla as with others; she drifted back to the morning paper, wherein lay the interest of the hour. And nothing else interested her or the world.
Martha announced lunch. Max accompanied her on her retreat to the kitchen. Palla loitered, not hungry, nervous and unquiet under the increasing need of occupation for that hot heart of hers.