Chapter 72
Usually I hated this comment but there was a mix of concern for me. But today it's different. He feels different. I tried to chat with him but he didn't open up. On the other hand he was chatting like usual with others. Don't you think it's just too much? Why avoid me? I know I will never disclose my affections towards him no matter how hard it becomes for me to keep. Without his consent I would never put him in the blind spot. That is how I am and I have always been. But is there any need to avoid me? Have I annoyed him than usual these days? Every sorts of thoughts and imaginations were crossing my mind. Finally I concluded that he is trying to avoid mess. Yes! and the mess is me, I and myself. Ever since I had entered his life I had been annoying him too much may be but he cannot tell me to begin with. The problem with one-sided love is that it simply grows without the consequences and never thinks whether the other party is willing or not. And same was the case with me. In order to contact him even just a little I message him everyday by giving various types of excuses so that I can at least have a one liner with him. But maybe my feelings are directed in a wrong way. Maybe he gets literally annoyed because of this but just to fulfil my thirst I simply maybe annoy him. May be I'm just a garbage in his life. But still, still he could at least tell me the reason. My focus was vague in the cla.s.s and I was unconsciously looking at him thinking and doubting myself once more whether it was a wrong decision to truly fall for him...