I Cannot Feel Like This!
Ying Lili had opened her eyes and was peering into Sheng Li's eyes, frightened of what he would do next. Ying Lili tried to distract Sheng Li, so she said, "I think someone is coming inside. Get away from me."
"No one is coming. My ears are sharper than yours and even if someone is coming, then let them see us. Because of your foolishness, I am already questioned about my relationship with you. You trusted that maidservant then announced such an amusing relationship of ours in front of the world," Sheng Li taunted Ying Lili.
Ying Lili averted her gaze from him. She knew that she made a mistake, but it did not mean that he could keep taunting her. "Didn't I tell you not to show your kindness?" Sheng Li questioned her.
"Why are you bringing the past now? I apologized to you for that. I realized that I made a mistake by trusting her too much," Ying Lili affirmed. Sheng Li snickered upon hearing Ying Lili's response and let go of her arms. He sat up on the bed with his back towards Ying Lili, whereas Ying Lili kept lying on the bed.
"Forgive me," Sheng Li heard Ying Lili who sat up on the bed. "I never encountered such things in my home, so I never thought that people could be like that. Did you punish her?" Ying Lili then asked.
"She is dead. She was poisoned," Sheng Li replied.
"The Prime Minister is indeed cunning," Ying Lili stated as she moved forward and sat beside Sheng Li. "Would you mind if I ask you some questions?"
Sheng Li turned his head towards Ying Lili. "What kind of questions?" Sheng Li queried.
"Umm… I want to know about you. I mean I shall know" Ying Lili could not complete her words as Sheng Li permitted her to ask. This delighted Ying Lili who was looking for this for many days.
"What do you like?" Ying Lili asked her first question.
"Do I need to answer?" Sheng Li's reply did not surprise Ying Lili. "Apart from killing, what does the Crown Prince like?" Ying Lili formally asked.
"Nothing," Sheng Li answered. Ying Lili twitched her lips. She murmured, "Why is he lying? That day he liked the song played by me. Brother Wanxi told me that he likes to throw tantrums at every single thing."
Sheng Li laughed as he found how Ying Lili was mocking him. "I can hear you. Forget about that day," Sheng Li stressed his last statement.
"I do not easily forget," Ying Lili replied. Sheng Li clenched his teeth and glared at her.
Ying Lili giggled seeing those reactions on Sheng Li's face. "Do not ask me anything now," Sheng Li asserted and after taking a pause he continued, "That is the only day I remember her. That song seems beautiful to me only on that day. Once that day passes, I do not recall anything related to her. So, do not irritate me by speaking about that day."
Ying Lili found she was out of words. She wanted to know why he was like this. But would Sheng Li answer her? Never! Because she was not close enough to him.
"That's it? You do not want to ask anymore?" Sheng Li asked her.
"No, I am asking. Tell me about your childhood." Ying Lili wanted to know about Sheng Li's early life because Prince Nianzu had told her that Sheng Li was abused as a child. So, she wanted to have an insight into Sheng Li's childhood.
"I do not remember that much. The only thing I remember is that I left the palace with my father at a young age and returned when I turned 11." Sheng Li did not want to tell anything related to his past to Ying Lili as he thought she would pity him.
Contrarily, Ying Lili realized that Sheng Li did not want to tell her anything. Maybe because they were not that close to each other and had no friendly relationship till now. So, she did not ask him any more questions. She came down from the bed when Sheng Li asked her where she was going.
"I am asking Court Lady Xu to bring some fruits for us. I am feeling hungry," Ying Lili replied and went out.
"She ate so much earlier," Sheng Li murmured. Ten minutes later, Ying Lili came inside with a tray in her hand. One bowl had some strawberries in it while the other had some apples. Ying Lili sat on the bed and peeled the apples quickly. "Give me some too," Sheng Li demanded.
"First let me cut them," Ying Lili stated, and she cut the two apples into pieces. She picked a strawberry and ate that while Sheng Li ate the apples.
"You shall eat strawberries as well," Ying Lili said with a smile and continued eating. Her lips turned red on which Sheng Li's gaze fell. Ying Lili found Sheng Li was gazing at her. She had the strawberry between her lips and said, "W-what are you looking at? Eat."
Sheng Li slid the tray away, which was placed between the two and moved closer to Ying Lili.
Ying Lili put the strawberry inside her mouth and chewed, then picked one strawberry for Sheng Li from the bowl. She brought it closer to his mouth, "Open your mouth." Sheng Li immediately came out of the thoughts which suddenly had formed inside his mind. He looked at Ying Lili who had her hand close to his lips. He opened his mouth and took the strawberry inside his mouth. His gaze was still fixated on Ying Lili's eyes as he chewed it.
"It is sweet, right?" Ying Lili asked with gleaming eyes.
Sheng Li gave a nod. "Indeed, it is!" Sheng Li replied and moved back. "How can I think like that?" Sheng Li wondered. "I cannot feel like this," he told himself as he looked at Ying Lili who was enjoying eating the strawberries.