Chapter 42
Date Published: March 28, 2020
Chapter t.i.tle: Waking Up to Something Different (2)
Chapter no. 43
(Crown Prince Xie Yue Yang's POV)
I composed myself.
I walked so fast that I haven't noticed how many years have pa.s.sed since I've last visited this courtyard. My mother died because my father cannot protect her from herself. My mother never wanted to marry my father but the fixed marriage between the two was planned by the elders. If my mother break the engagement she and her family will perish in public. So my mother was forced into marrying my father. Lucky for them, my parents loved each other so dearly that it left my father ruling the kingdom alone when she pa.s.sed away. And memories came flooding in my mind as I came unexpectedly, to reminisce the past that I cannot bury.
Now that the tradition is pa.s.sed to me I cannot say anything at all. My father arranged a marriage for me, and for sure a week from now we will go to the Qin's manor and ensure the arrangements of the marriage. But how can I force a woman to marry a man she has never known? What's worst is that I don't have the ability to love a woman. How can she agree to a marriage that was set without her permission? How can she agree marrying into a loveless marriage?
How will she bear to marry me?
And what if she already has a lover?
I don't want to turn someone into a crazy woman and I don't want someone to follow the path that my mother has walked through. The difference is that; I am doubting if I
"You worry too much" I received a light tap on my shoulder
"Lord Pegasus?" I was dumbfounded by seeing his presence, I bowed and saluted right after
"I said you worry too much, don't worry she is different." He said, then he reminded me of the pending responsibility that I will need to face alone
"But--"
"Do not worry, she has answers to your greatest fears. Just go with the flow of fate, let it take you to unexpected adventures. Planning too much will lead you to failure, look we can never control time nor feelings. I have seen this girl grow, and she is different" He said, giving me a.s.surance that if I let go of my doubts something good will happen
"But I am--" Yet I want to try to explain my side, how can I leave that man? I know my closest friend doesn't know a thing of my growing admiration towards him, but I cannot just give him up
"You are who you are, as I say we don't control everything. So we cannot have a final say with feelings or acceptance. She is a woman of a different kind, she will understand. And besides, the person you intend to love is someone engaged and to be married even before you. You wouldn't want of dreaming to break him right?" Lord Pegasus warned and he wants to make me clear-headed
"How--" I stopped talking, the engagement between him and Dongmei mist have been approved, pain engulfed my heart and loneliness shattered my dreaming mind
But Lord Pegasus only smiled and left the room. I blinked, how did I get here?
He might have used his powers to me.
I went inside my mother's room.
And right there, I saw a sight I never thought I'll ever see.
There on the bed she lays. Hair so long and soft. Face so small with a heart shape, lashes so thick, nose so straight and sharp, lips so cute and red, but her brows were knitted together. Is she in pain?
I closed the door behind and move closer to the bed.
She looks like an angel sleeping on the bed of my mother.
Her face makes me want to scoop her in my arms and protect her. I sat down next to her as gentle as possible and observe her. Her beauty is very different from the girls in this palace, and somehow I think I've seen her before...
Suddenly her hand moved and clasped mine.
"Don't... Don't leave me."
She whispered.
I felt the coldness of her fingertips so my other hand attentively wrapped hers in mine.
"I won't" and then I answered without consciousness