Chapter 62
Well, he thought, mentally cooler because of his revelation, that is an att.i.tude towards life that has many advantages. One might call Cecily a stoical amorist, an erotic philosopher. "Love where you can, and don't bother where you can't!" might serve her for a motto. "And, really, that's rather a good way of getting through these plaguey emotions of ours!" he told himself. "Only," he went on, "you can't walk in that way just because you think it's a good one!"
He sat between Lady Cecily and Mary at supper, but he did not talk a great deal to either of them, for Mary was chattering excitedly to Sir Geoffrey Mundane, and Cecily was persuading Ninian that engineering had always been the pa.s.sion of her life. "I quite agree," she was saying, "a Channel Tunnel would be very useful and... and so convenient, too.
I've often said that to Jimphy, but dear Jimphy doesn't pretend to understand these things!" She had turned to him once and, in a whisper, had said, "Which of you is in love with Mary?" but he had pretended to be wooden and hard of understanding.
"My dear Paddy," she said, raising her eyebrows, "I believe you're sulking... just because I wouldn't run away with you. You're as bad as Gilbert!"
"You're perfectly brutal," he said under his breath.
"Aren't you exaggerating?" she replied. "And if I had gone off with you, we'd have missed this nice supper. Do be sociable, there's a dear Paddy, and perhaps I'll run away with you next Tuesday!"
There was a babble of conversation about them, and much laughter, for Gilbert, reacting from his fright, was full of bright talk, and Sir Geoffrey, reminiscent, capped it with entertaining tales of dramatists and stage people. It was easy for Cecily and Henry to carry on their conversation in quiet tones without fear of being overheard.
"You treat me like a boy," he said reproachfully.
"You are a boy, Paddy dear, and a very nice boy!"
"I suppose," he retorted, "it's impossible for you to understand that I love you...."
"Indeed, it isn't," she interrupted. "I understand that quite easily.
What I can't understand is why you wish to spoil everything by silly proposals to... to elope!..."
"But
She shook her head, and turned again to Ninian.
"You see," Ninian said, "you bore through this big bed of chalk from both sides...."
"But how do you know the two ends will meet?" she asked.
"Oh, engineers manage that sort of thing easily," Ninian answered.
"Think of the Simplon Tunnel!..."
"Yes!" she said, to indicate that she was thinking of it.
"Well, that met, didn't it?"
"Did it?" she replied. "Oh, but of course it must have met. I've been through it!..."
"There was hardly an inch of divergence between the two ends," he went on....
"h.e.l.l's flames!" Henry said to himself.
5
"I must see you," he said to her when the party had broken up and she was going home. "I must see you alone!"
"I do hope you're not going to be a nuisance, Paddy!" she replied.
He put her cloak about her shoulders. "Will you meet me at the suspension bridge over the lake in St. James's Park to-morrow at eleven?..."
"That's awfully early, Paddy, and St. James's Park is such a long way from everywhere. Couldn't you come to lunch? Jimphy'll be glad to see you. He seems to like you for some reason!"
"I want to talk to you alone, and we're not likely to be disturbed in St. James's Park. You must come, Cecily!"
"Oh, all right," she answered. "But I shan't be there before twelve. You can take me to lunch somewhere...."
"Very well," he said. "I'll be at the bridge at twelve, and I'll wait for you... only, come as soon as you can, Cecily!"
"I can't think why you want to behave like this, Paddy. It's so melodramatic. Gilbert was just the same!..."
He felt that he could hit her when she said that, and he turned away from her so quickly that her cloak slipped from her shoulders.
"Oh, Paddy!" she exclaimed.
"I beg your pardon!" he answered, turning again and picking the cloak from the ground.
"You're so... so selfish," she said. "You want everything to be just as you like it. You're just like Gilbert... where is Gilbert?... I must say good-night to him... and that nice girl, Mary. I think it's a very clever play, and she's such a nice girl, too. Oh, Gilbert, there you are! Good-night! I've enjoyed everything so much... a nice play and a nice supper. Good-night, and do come and see me soon, won't you. Why not come to-morrow with Paddy?..."
"Paddy?" said Gilbert.
"Yes, Henry Quinn. I call him Paddy. It seems natural to call him Paddy.
He's so Irish. Do come with him to-morrow, and bring all your press cuttings with you and read them to me. Paddy wants to talk to me...."
Henry walked away from them. What sort of woman was this? he asked himself. Was she totally insensitive? Was it impossible for her to realise that she was hurting him?...
"Good-night, Quinny!"
He turned quickly to take Mary's hand.
"We're going back to Devons.h.i.+re the day after to-morrow," she said.
"Are you?" he murmured vaguely.
"Yes. Good-night, Quinny!"
"Aren't you tired?" he asked.
"Oh, no," she answered. "I've enjoyed myself awfully much. Here's Ninian! He's taking us back to our hotel. Good-night, Quinny!"
He hesitated for a moment or two. He wanted to suggest that he should go with her instead of Ninian, but before he could speak he saw Cecily moving down the room towards the street.
"Good-night, Mary!" was all he said.
6
Roger had taken Rachel home, and so, when Ninian had gone off with his mother and Mary, there were only Henry and Gilbert left.