Feelings are not easy
Gu Yan wanted to drink some more, but the wine in the bottle had been emptied by Qi Changfeng. So she raised her hand and intended on asking the waiter to bring another bottle, but Qi Changfeng pressed down her hand.
"You don’t feel distressed at all seeing that you’re not the one paying, do you? It’s a shame that such a good bottle is wasted on you. Stop drinking already, you do have to go to work tomorrow, right?"
Qi Changfeng was now certain that Gu Yan was concerned about something. Normally, she would not do such a gaffe. She had always been very rational. Every time she was like this, it always had something to do with the Mo family.
He put on a wry smile, it seemed that Gu Yan, simply couldn’t escape the Mo family, at least not in this lifetime.
"Big deal, I’ll pay for it then! Waiter!"
Gu Yan still wanted to call the waiter. Seeing that she acted like this and already finished the meal, there would be a problem if they drank more. Qi Changfeng was not sure whether he could control himself after he got drunk. So he grabbed Gu Yan and left the restaurant.
After being pulled out of the restaurant by Qi Changfeng and feeling the cool breeze, she sobered up a little. Her capacity for liquor was still as bad as ever. Gu Yan couldn’t help thinking in her heart. But feeling the cold wind on her face felt quite good. She hadn’t relaxed like this for a long time.
She felt that her schedule was full every day, not even allowing any downtime for herself. At this very moment, without Mo Yichen and Li Yunhong around, and without anything that would make her feel troubled and distressed, just the cold wind blowing on her face, not thinking about anything, it was kind of nice.
Her hands were freezing, but her cheeks were quite hot. Gu Yan knew that if she looked in the mirror right now, her cheeks would definitely be red. She was now totally relaxed.
He had already noticed her red cheeks in the restaurant. He knew that when people got tipsy, they would feel really comfortable with the cold wind blowing in their faces. And, the cold wind right now was just perfect.
He turned around and saw Gu Yan grinning. Her mood had to be better now, right? Qi Changfeng relaxed a little, he didn’t want to ask about personal things that would make her feel sad, but seeing her in such a depressing state made him feel miserable too. It was as though he could empathize with her.
"Gu Yan, are you happy?"
But he couldn’t help it. He had to get
"Am I happy?" Gu Yan also asked herself in her heart. She had always known that in life, it was absolutely impossible to be smooth sailing all the way. No one had ever had a totally smooth life. Now she was in adversity because Mo Yichen was going through a rough patch, so her life was, in turn, difficult as well.
She only knew that no one had ever gone through life without distress. She sometimes would also get distressed, but most of the time, she was quite happy.
Mo Yichen loved her deeply. Although there were some problems in their relationship as of late, Gu Yan believed that these problems would not become an obstacle in their love. Sometimes, there would be a connection between two people who loved each other. An intuition, that they could feel each other’s love.
Just like now, Gu Yan could still feel Mo Yichen’s love for her. She knew that Mo Yichen loved her, and that she would not leave Mo Yichen because of these problems. Because she believed that apart from Mo Yichen, she would never meet such a person again and that she was 100% certain that she was willing to spend the rest of her life with him.
In addition to Mo Yichen, there was also Mo Xiangyan, who was really a miraculous existence. For her, even the greatest pain in the world would seem like nothing with just one glace at Mo Xiangyan.
No matter where the pressure came from, with just one look at Mo Xiangyan, she felt that the pressure seemed to alleviate a little. Mo Xiangyan was her source of strength.
Plus, she owed so much to Mo Xiangyan. She couldn’t bear to let Mo Xiangyan experience any more hardship because of her. So was she happy? As long as she was with Mo Xiangyan, she was happy.
She knew that Qi Changfeng asked that question because he wanted a positive answer. He didn’t want to hear all the troubles in her life, he just wanted her to tell him that she was indeed happy.
"I am very happy."
Gu Yan turned to look into Qi Changfeng’s eyes and told him her final answer, which was that she was very happy. Since everyone’s family had to go through their fair share of ups and downs, what she was going through was not worth mentioning really.
She believed that problems were only temporary and that they would be resolved with the passing of time.
Because as soon as Gu Yan thought about the fact that Mo Yichen and Mo Xiangyan were in her life, she felt extremely happy. She had experienced life without them, and it was something that she didn’t even want to think about again, much less experience again.
It was as though her eyes were as deep as the ocean and as vast as the milky way. In fact just moments ago, Qi Changfeng couldn’t feel a hint of alcohol despite drinking quite a lot. But now, seeing her eyes, it was as though he was drunk.
He knew that she was not lying to him. Gu Yan would not lie to him. Even though his feelings for her could never be reciprocated, he would always be a good friend to her.
He was the kind of friend that would appear at any moment as long as Gu Yan needed him.
Since Gu Yan said that she was happy, then she must be happy. Qi Changfeng seemed to feel a hint of loss in his heart. Hearing her say that she was indeed happy, he felt some kind of unspeakable emotion in his heart.
He couldn’t speak about his feelings towards her as long as she was happy. He couldn’t use Gu Yan being unhappy as an excuse to pursue her, to openly tell her that he would make her happy. And that he would never let her be sad.
He didn’t know if he would do better than Mo Yichen, but looking at how sad Gu Yan was right now, he couldn’t help wanting to rub Mo Yichen’s face on the ground.
However, he also knew that love was never an easy thing. For Mo Yichen, for Gu Yan, or even for himself, no one could easily understand the true meaning of love. However, Qi Changfeng just couldn’t stand to see Gu Yan sad, or suffer a hint of hardship.