Chapter 24
But there were times when it wasn't exactly clear, when a person almost surely was an insurgent, probably was doing evil, but there was still some doubt because of the circ.u.mstances or the surroundings-the way he moved, for example, wasn't toward an area where troops were. A lot of times a guy seemed to be acting macho for friends, completely unaware that I was watching him, or that there were American troops nearby.
Those shots I didn't take.
You couldn't-you had to worry about your own a.s.s. Make an unjustified shot and you could be charged with murder.
I often would sit there and think, "I know this motherf.u.c.ker is bad; I saw him doing such and such down the street the other day, but here he's not doing anything, and if I shoot him, I won't be able to justify it for the lawyers. I'll fry." Like I said, there is paperwork for everything. Every confirmed kill had doc.u.mentation, supporting evidence, and a witness.
So I wouldn't shoot.
There weren't a lot of those, especially in Fallujah, but I was always extremely aware of the fact that every killing might have to be justified to the lawyers.
My att.i.tude was: if my justification is I thought my target would do something bad, then I wasn't justified. He had to be doing something bad.
Even with that standard, there were plenty of targets. I was averaging two and three a day, occasionally less, sometimes much more, with no end in sight.
A squat water tower rose above the rooftops a few blocks from one of the roofs where we were perched. It looked like a wide yellow tomato.
We'd already moved a few blocks past the tower when a Marine decided to climb up and retrieve the Iraqi flag flying from the grid work. As he climbed, the insurgents who had lain low during the earlier attack began firing on him. Within seconds, he was shot up and trapped.
We backtracked over, moving along the streets and across the rooftops until we found the men shooting at him. When we had the area cleared, we sent up one of our guys to retrieve the flag. After we got it down, we sent it to the Marine in the hospital.
RUNAWAY SHOWS HIS COLORS
Not long afterward, a guy I'll call Runaway and I were on the street when we had contact with Iraqi insurgents. We ducked into a shallow setback in the wall next to the street, waiting for the hail of bullets to die down.
"We'll work our way back," I told Runaway. "You go first. I'll cover you."
"Good."
I leaned out and laid down cover fire, forcing the Iraqis back. I waited a few seconds, giving Runaway time to get into position so he could cover me. When I thought enough time had pa.s.sed, I jumped out and started running.
Bullets began flying all around, but not from Runaway. They were all coming from the Iraqis, who were trying to write their names in my back with bullets.
I threw myself against the wall, sliding next to the gate. For a moment I was disoriented: where was Runaway?
He should have been nearby, waiting under cover for me so we could leapfrog back. But he was nowhere to be seen. Had I pa.s.sed him on the street?
No. Motherf.u.c.ker was busy earning his nickname.
I was trapped, hung up by the insurgents and without my mysteriously disappearing friend.
The Iraqi gunfire got so
By then I'd figured out what had happened. When I met with Runaway a short time later, I practically strangled him-I probably would have, if it hadn't been for the officer there.
"Why the h.e.l.l did you run away?" I demanded. "You ran all the way down the block without covering me."
"I thought you were following me."
"Bulls.h.i.+t."
It was the second time that week Runaway had taken off on me under fire. The first time I'd cut him slack, giving him the benefit of the doubt. But it was now clear he was a coward. Once he was under fire, he just p.u.s.s.ied out.
Command separated us. It was a wise thing to do.
"WE'RE JUST GONNA SHOOT"
A little after Runaway's Exciting Adventure, I came down from my position on one of the roofs when I heard a s.h.i.+t-ton of rounds go off nearby. I ran outside but couldn't see the firefight. Then I heard a radio call that there were men down.
A fellow I'll call Eagle and I ran up the block until we came across a group of Marines who'd retreated after taking fire about a block away. They told us that a group of insurgents had pinned down some other Marines not too far away, and we decided we'd try and help them.
We tried getting an angle from a nearby house, but it wasn't tall enough. Eagle and I moved closer, trying another house. Here we found four Marines on the roof, two of whom had been wounded. Their stories were confusing, and we couldn't get shots from there, either. We decided to take them out so the wounded could be helped; the kid I carried down had been gut-shot.
Down on the street, we got better directions from the two Marines who hadn't been shot, finally realizing that we had been targeting the wrong house. We started down an alley in the direction of the insurgents, but after a short distance we came to obstructions we couldn't get around, and we reversed course. Just as I came around the corner back out onto the main street, there was an explosion behind me-an insurgent had seen us coming and tossed a grenade.
One of the Marines following me went down. Eagle was a corpsman as well as a sniper, and after we pulled the injured kid away from the alley he went to work on him. Meanwhile, I took the rest of the Marines and continued down the road in the direction of the insurgents' stronghold.
We found a second group of Marines huddled at a nearby corner, pinned down by fire from the house. They'd set out to rescue the first group but stalled. I got everyone together and I told them that a small group of us would rush up the street while the others laid down fire. The trapped Marines were about fifty yards away, about one full block.
"It doesn't matter if you can see them or not," I told them. "We're all just gonna shoot."
I got up to start. A terrorist jumped out into the middle of the road and began unleas.h.i.+ng h.e.l.l on us, spitting bullets from a belt-fed weapon. Returning fire as best we could, we ducked back for cover. Everybody checked themselves for holes; miraculously, no one had been shot.
By now, somewhere between fifteen and twenty Marines were there with me.
"All right," I told them. "We're going to try this again. Let's do it this time."
I jumped out from around the corner, firing my weapon as I ran. The Iraqi machine gunner had been hit and killed by our earlier barrage, but there were still plenty of bad guys farther up the street.
I'd taken only a few steps when I realized that none of the Marines had followed me.
s.h.i.+t. I kept running.
The insurgents began focusing their fire on me. I tucked my Mk-11 under my arm and fired back as I ran. The semiautomatic is a great, versatile weapon, but in this particular situation its twenty-round magazine seemed awful small. I blew through one mag, popped the release, slammed in a second, and kept firing.
I found four men huddled near a wall not far from the house. It turned out that two of them were reporters who'd been embedded with the Marines; they were getting a h.e.l.l of a better view of the battle than they had bargained for.
"I'll cover you," I shouted. "Get the h.e.l.l out of here."
I jumped up and laid down fire as they ran. The final Marine tapped me on the shoulder as he pa.s.sed, signaling that he was the last man out. Ready to follow, I glanced to my right, checking my flank.
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw a body sprawled on the ground. He had Marine camis.
Where he came from, whether he'd been there when I arrived or crawled there from somewhere else, I have no idea. I ran over to him, saw that he'd been shot in both legs. I slapped a new mag into my gun, then grabbed the back of his body armor and pulled him with me as I retreated.
At some point as I ran, one of the insurgents threw a frag. The grenade exploded somewhere nearby. Pieces of wall peppered my side, from my b.u.t.t cheek down to my knee. By some lucky chance, my pistol took the biggest fragment. It was pure luck-it might have put a nice hole in my leg.