Chapter 83
"And--my wife? You are sure--quite sure?" he asked in agony.
"Quite sure... She wants rest, of course, but it's been a most wonderful escape." He hesitated. "They haven't found the other poor fellow yet?" he asked.
"No."
He saw the grief in Chris' face, and held out his hand.
"You did your best; it was a gallant thing--going into the river like that--in the darkness. They would both have gone but for you."
"You'd best go to bed, sir," the innkeeper's wife said to Chris, as he went back upstairs. "Lie down and try to sleep: I'll call you the very minute if she asks for you."
But he would not, and in the end she brought an armchair to the door of Marie's room, and, worn out with exhaustion and emotion, Chris fell asleep in it.
He woke to daylight and the tramp of feet on the road outside. He stared up and stood listening and shaking in every limb.
He knew what it meant--they were bringing Feathers in...
The awfulness of it seemed to come home to him with overwhelming force as he stood there and listened.
He had lost his best friend--the man who for years had been more to him than a brother, and they had parted in anger. He had refused to shake hands with him--he would have given five years of his life now to live that moment again.
The innkeeper's wife came tiptoeing to him across the little landing as he stood looking out of the window on to the road. She had been up with Marie all night, and whispered to him now that she had fallen asleep.
"Such a lovely sleep, bless her!" she said, with pride. "And if you was to be very quiet..."
No more words were needed. Chris went past her and into the room where Marie lay.
She was fast asleep, her hair spread out over the pillow like a dark wing, and Chris went down on his knees beside her and hid his face. She had n.o.body now in the world but him--Miss Chester had gone, and Feathers... Oh, he would make it up to her! He would spend his whole life trying to make up to her all she had suffered.
"I love you, I love you," he said aloud, as if she could hear, but she did not move or stir, and presently he went away again.
He had not kissed her--not even her hands. Something seemed to hold him back from doing so, until she herself should say that he might.
The news of the accident had spread like wildfire, and
The doctor came again, and was very pleased with Marie's progress.
"I think she could be taken home to-day," he told Chris. "It will be just as well to get her from this place."
Chris said he would make all arrangements.
"I can see her, of course?" he asked.
"Yes." But the doctor looked away from his anxious eyes. "I should not worry her or question her at all," he said diffidently, and then he added uncomfortably: "She seems somehow afraid at the thought of seeing you."
"Afraid!" The color rushed to Chris' face.
"Yes. Perhaps it is only my fancy, but she seemed nervous, I thought, when I mentioned you." He looked at the young man kindly.
"Be gentle with her," he said, "I think she has suffered very much."
Chris did not answer, and the doctor went away.
Afraid! Afraid of him, when he loved her so! It was another hard blow to Chris to feel that Marie did not wish to see him. He tried to make allowances for her. He knew what she had suffered. With sudden impulse he ran downstairs, overtaking the doctor in the hall below.
"My wife--does she know--that... that Feathers was drowned?" he asked jaggedly.
"Feathers?" the other man echoed, not understanding. "Oh you mean that poor fellow. Yes--I told her---"
"What--what did she say?"
"Nothing--she just turned her face away."
"I see. Thank you." Chris went upstairs slowly. He stood for a long time at his wife's door, not daring to knock, but at last he summoned his courage.
He heard her say "Come in" in a little quiet voice, and he opened the door.
She was dressed and sitting up in a big chair. She did not look so ill as he had expected, was his first relieved thought, and yet in some strange way she seemed to have changed. Was it that she looked older? He could not determine, but her eyes met his steadily, almost as if she did not recognize him, and her voice was quite even as she answered his broken question.
"I am--much better, thank you," and then: "The doctor says I may go home."
"Yes--I will take you this afternoon."
She twisted her fingers together restlessly, her eyes downcast, then quite suddenly she raised them to his face.
"I wish you had let me drown," she said, with pa.s.sionate intensity.
"Marie--Marie," said Chris, in anguish.
She seemed heedless of his pain and went on talking as if to herself. "I'm no use to anybody. I bring nothing but trouble with me! That fortune-teller was right, you see, when she told me that she could see water in my life again--that would bring trouble...
and tears!" Her voice fell almost to a whisper.
Chris stood looking at her helplessly. She seemed in some strange way to be a great distance from him and yet by putting out his hand he could have touched her.
"Feathers gave his life for me" she went on, in that curious sing-song tone. "He could have saved himself, but he would not leave me--and we were... oh, hours in that dreadful darkness!"
"Don't think of it, Marie! Oh, my dear, try and forget it all."
She raised her haunted brown eyes to his face.
"I can't! I can't hear anything any more but the sound of that dreadful river! It was like a voice, mocking us. And he was so brave!" She caught her breath with a long, shuddering sob, but no tears came.
"I am glad that he loved me," she said again presently. "It is something to be proud of--always--that Feathers loved me."
Chris could not bear to look at her tragic face She had no thought for him, he knew, but she had never been so inexpressibly dear to him as she was now.
He was at his wits' end to know what to do with her. It was impossible to take her home with Miss Chester lying dead in the house, and there seemed n.o.body to whom he could turn for help.
Presently, he said gently: